If it’s both terrifying and amazing, then you should definitely pursue it.
Midwifery. Terrifying. Amazing.
It is hard to say when this journey began. Each phase of the process has felt like a new beginning. My first doula workshop, the first birth I attended, watching The Business of Being Born and realizing that, as a doula, I wasn’t going to be able to help facilitate the changes I wish to see. Submitting my application to Birthwise Midwifery School was one of the most nerve wracking things I’ve done to date. Accepting only 20 students per year out of applicants from all over the country, how could I possibly be worth their time?
But then the call came. I had been accepted to the 2018 Certified Professional Midwifery Program Community Cohort at the school of my dreams. Naturally, I was at work when the call came in, so I was able to listen to the news over and over on my voicemail, crying tears of joy at my desk. My coworkers knew how important this was to me. They had been helping me through out the whole application process; editing essays, writing letters of reference, letting me talk non stop about Birthwise for months. They celebrated with me. A doctor that I worked very closely with, attending my first birth as a doula for one of his patients, picked me up off the ground he hugged me so hard. I cried some more.
Reality set in and I began to realize that getting into the school of my dreams was not going to be the hard part. Figuring out a school, work, life balance; navigating the world of student loans; buying textbooks; preparing for the first week of classes with hours of studying.
All leading to now.
My first day of classes is only two days away. I am mentally packing everything I’ll need for a week in Bridgton. A week with 18 women I’ve never met but already share so much with. A week immersed in midwifery, feminism, beauty, passion, and first day jitters. A week away from my husband and home. A week of new beginnings.
And so it begins.